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Hey you!  Happy Monday!  I hope you had a great weekend.  

So, let's have a real conversation.  Have you ever gone through a period in your life where you felt like your eyes were opened, but you couldn't see a thing?  Like so much was going on that you needed a solution for,  and although you were looking in all the places that you thought were right, you couldn't find one to save your life?

In the fall of 1999, I had begun my second year of pharmacy school.  Although many would look at this as a major accomplishment, I felt like a complete failure.  I had always done well in school.  I certainly never had a problem with passing tests after I had studied.  For the first time in my life, I would study for a test, and fail.

 I would spend much of my weekends and my afternoons when I got home from class studying.  At times, I would stay up all night studying.  To no avail, I would still fail many tests.  I was blessed to pull off a 75, at times, and ecstatic when I saw anything above an 80!

This may not sound like a big deal to some people. I get that.  This was totally foreign to me, and I was not handling it well.

Then, the love of my life, my grandmother, fell really ill and passed away.

I felt like all the walls had come tumbling down around me.

I was in a really dark place.  I talked to friends.  I went to church.  I prayed.  I joined study groups.  I did all that I knew to do, and could not get any relief.  

My eyes were wide shut.